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Sea Lion
Posted on November 20th, 2008 by Jacob.
Categories: Life, Music.
The force of my love was strong. The sea lion laying down long.
Song in the air, why should the singer care when singer can be among song?
Ma, look what i did, Ma. Look what i did to my hands, I broke ‘em.
You gave me the stone, gave me the chisel, didn’t say how to hold ‘em.
Didn’t say to give away every piece of the puzzle ’til i was left with nothin’.
But i took it upon myself to crush it up and distribute the dust.
Get in the bus. Hop in the van. Jump in the water. Crawl to the land.
Build another castle out of sand. Break it down and then get into the saddle again.
I’m going city to city, i’m already lost. Tell the boss who is new in town.
I’ll ride this horse ’til it it bucks me off and i’m forced to shoot it down.
I’ll take him out for some gasoline. Trade this cow for some magic beans.
Gonna make mom proud of the deals that I made, ’cause I’m just a modern day Johnny Appleseed
But i’m glad that I never passed the genes, and I never put down the axe.
Piano man got a checkered dance floor to grace and a painful look on his face.
‘Cause the crowd is packed and the louder they clap
the less he is able to make the connection between what he sees
when he hears certain notes and the hurt that is shown in his facial expression.
I don’t need your “go ahead” to go ahead.
No, I know no one said it was gonna be easy, but sweet jesus who wants to sleep with me?
Way too many moves to learn. Not enough people to put ‘em on.
Look, Ma! No hands. I built this suit of armor with wooden arms.
I’m starting to believe the ocean is just like you.
Posted on November 14th, 2008 by Jacob.
Categories: Life.
I really don’t like insane girls.
They creep me out and lately, it’s just annoying. Holy geeze.
On a better note, I wrote the first song i’ve ever REALLY been happy with. It’s a fairly soft song, although it builds up. My last entry had lyrics from it. I’ll post it up here when I get a good recording.
So, crazy psycho girls. Stop being so fickle, stop freaking out, you’re alive. Just enjoy it.
Everybody else, stay fresh.
McCain / Obama Bashing
Posted on November 4th, 2008 by Jacob.
Categories: Life.
needs to stop.
I don’t care who you voted for, what you voted on, or anything else, but i do know that you bashing on either of the candidates or their supporters makes you look extremely uneducated and it completely kills your credibility.
so please, just stop.
i understand that you may be upset with the way that the elections turned out, or you may be completely stoked, so convey your thoughts in a respectful manner.
when somebody says “F#*! ALL OF YOU MCCAIN SUPPORTERS, YOU’RE A BUNCH OF REDNECK B*#&$@ WHO CAN’T GROW UP.” or vice versa. it makes you look like an angry individual who has no control over your mouth. by doing so, you make your reader shut off. by conveying your opinion in such a negative way, you’re showing everybody else that you don’t know how to do it any other way, which is sad on your part.
if you have an opinion, please state it in a humanly fashion.
thank you.
jacob aaron bundren
Jesus Christ ‘08
We are more than wandering lights
Posted on October 22nd, 2008 by Jacob.
Categories: Life.
So, now that I’ll actually be posting this, it will be the 12th draft of this particular blog that i’ve written. I wanted to make sure that my emotions were clear and that I actually knew what I was truly feeling before posting. That time has finally arrived.
Aaron is gone. He’s back in Seattle, and he left without telling us that he wasn’t coming back. His excuse for leaving was that his mom was having surgery, later I found out that was a lie. He owed us money that we needed to keep our water running and he didn’t like the fact that it’s not a good idea for him to go around getting drunk all of the time while he’s setting an example for the kids at the youth group we worked at. So, he left. Nobody has heard from him and it was rather cowardly, but who am I to judge? The only thing I ask is why? He’s up there now spreading rumors that I am the biggest *$#&@ and that my mother is an alcoholic, both of which aren’t true. I just want to know why.
People ask me why I let him stay in my house to begin with. You see, my house is open for people who have problems, for people who need to get away, and for people who need to start over. Aaron had some addiction problems up in Seattle and needed a fresh start, so we welcomed him. We don’t judge the people that stay with us, we just show them love, because it’s what Christ calls us to do.
When Jesus was here on earth, he didn’t hang out with the religious leaders. He showed love to those that needed it most. The outcasts, prostitutes, murderers, cheaters, and tax collectors are the people who he was seen with. He just showed them the love that they needed to see, something that was beyond what they’ve ever encountered or heard of before. That is all I was trying to do with the whole Aaron situation. I did my part by showing as much love as I could. We tried our best to help him with his problems, but you can’t win if the person doesn’t want to change at heart. There’s no avoiding that.
Am I angry? No. Am I frustrated? A little. Am I sad? Definitely. The thing that hurts the most in life is watching those that you love fall and not being able to do a thing about it. It seems that i’ve truly encountered that. I am a little sad that some of my stuff is missing, and I am a little sad that he never bothered to tell me that he was never going to speak to me again, but you can’t win them all.
You can’t teach an old dog new tricks. Aaron wanted to go back to his old lifestyle. I do pray for him everyday, even though I was burned badly. I feel like it’s the right thing to do. So, take care my friends.
Jacob Aaron Bundren
I’ve seen more guts in eleven year old kids
Posted on October 12th, 2008 by Jacob.
Categories: Life.
Is that what you call a getaway?
Tell me what you got away with,
‘cuz i’ve seen more spine in jellyfish.
I’ve seen more guts in eleven year old kids.
So have another drink and drive yourself home.
I hope there’s ice on all the roads.
You can think of me when you forget your seatbelt,
and again when your head goes through the windshield.
I’ve encountered an extreme lack of tact in the past week or so. Life has taken yet another turn, and i’ll post a blog once I sort everything out.
You’re not welcome in this town, boy.
Jacob Aaron Bundren
I’ll Give
Posted on October 2nd, 2008 by Jacob.
Categories: Life.
Amy
Andrew
Ashley
Becky
Ben
Britt
Catherine
Christie
Dale
Daniel
David
Elaine
Eric
Erica
Erin
Jacob
Jen
Jessica
Josh
Karen
Kayla
Kevin
Kim
Laura
Mike
Morgan
Nick
Nicole
Sam
Sara
Tyler
Sometimes it’s best to be selfless. It’s more internally rewarding. You can fall asleep at night knowing that you’ve changed somebody’s life. Once your time is done, then the individual moves on, hopefully sharing a piece of themselves with the next person they give to.
I just miss the contact that we initially had. People go their separate ways. That’s the tough thing about this business.
I’ll give until there’s nothing left. I’ll give.
-Jacob Aaron Bundren
Jesus Loves the Pornstars
Posted on October 2nd, 2008 by Jacob.
Categories: Life.
There’s this organization that I support with 100% of what I am, it goes by the name of XXX Church, and their tagline is “Jesus Loves the Porn Stars.”
Ever since i’ve been making it clear that I support this christian organization, I have been getting many complaints. It appears that this is just too controversial, but I will still stand my ground. Let me explain a little bit…
XXX Church is an organization that speaks out against pornography. They offer accountability and somebody to confidentially talk to when individuals are struggling with their ongoing battle with porn. It is such an amazing ministry, and I think that it’s controversial way of going about things are what keep people like me supporting them.
Now people email / text / myspace / facebook message me and ask me why I support such an organization. Anybody that says “Jesus Loves the Porn Stars” is definitely not a christian and they may even be blasphemous. Others tell me to stop speaking out, because there’s nothing wrong with porn, and that it’s 100% natural for us humans to be attracted to it.
So let’s start the explanations. Jesus loved the outcasts. He went around and he hung out with the lowest of low people, the people that society deemed as being “unclean.” Christ didn’t walk with the priests or religious leaders, he went to the bottom of the food chain, and he showed love like those people have never experienced it. So, if anybody says that Jesus does not love the porn stars, then they are very sadly mistaken. Jesus would be hanging out with the porn stars, strippers, crack dealers, murderers, and dirty politicians. He would go to them first and He would love them as they are, because they are the ones who need to be shown that kind of true love. So I must say, Jesus most definitely does love everybody, even the porn stars.
Second, to the ones who say that being attracted to porn is 100% natural:
It certainly is 100% natural to be attracted to sex. As humans, we’re designed to like sex, we’re supposed to, but it’s a covenant meant for marriage. Sex was designed for husband and wife, and it was designed to be sweet! But, only under those circumstances. So sex is definitely appealing, but it’s meant to be shared by a married man and his wife. Porn just takes that image of God’s gift of sex and distorts it. It tells us what women are “supposed” to look like, giving us “perfect” naked women to look at. It also tells us that the covenant between man, woman, and God no longer matters. I must say that that statement is a lie, and a distortion made by the porn industry and the society we live in.
So there you have it. In my defense for supporting an controversial and amazing organization.
-Jacob Aaron Bundren
Oh God, I love you. I mean forever.
Posted on September 29th, 2008 by Jacob.
Categories: Life.
September 28th marks the day of my birth. I’m always a little hesitant to celebrate because I don’t want to seem like it’s all about me, because it definitely isn’t all about me. But, 20 years ago, I came into existence.
I don’t know if I was planned or if I was an accident, but I’m here today for a reason. I know that I say it often, but I’m here to love. These last few days have been trying that, but in the end, people know what love feels like. One of the deepest desires we have as humans is to be appreciated. Sometimes it’s hard to do things behind the scenes and never hear that you’re appreciated and wanted. I’ve been feeling that lately. I feel like i’ve been giving so much only to go unnoticed, which is totally okay when you think about it because I’m not doing it for personal fame. But, I will admit, it did feel good today. People told me that they appreciated me and that I was wanted. If not verbally, then through their actions. It’s just a nice feeling.
The people who showed that weren’t necessarily the people that i’d expect to show that towards me. They were the individuals who I thought I hadn’t made an impact on, I thought that they had met me and forgotten about me, but I was wrong.
So thank you to the unnamed people who go unnoticed. I appreciate you, and I wish you the best of luck. God bless you.
Jacob Aaron Bundren
I’ll write you a lullaby
Posted on September 26th, 2008 by Jacob.
Categories: Life.
Tonight was really refreshing. I know that sometimes I tend to overuse that word, but there are just certain times when you need to be renewed. I went to work. Nothing really crazy going on there.
But, after that, I went with my friends. You could definitely call us an odd mix of people, but we stick together, because we know what love really is, and we know what friendship really means. It means more than a phone call every now and then. These people have stuck with me through thick and thin over the past, well… Chris has been with me since the seventh grade, so that makes a good eight years. Eight years of dealing with me, that’s more than I could ask anybody to do, but they’ve been enjoyable times and I wouldn’t trade them for the world. I hope things stay the same in the years to come.
We got slurpees, ate 7-11 burritos, laughed at the drunks downtown and just messed around, just like we always have.
Give me something to believe in, a breath from the breathing.
So write it down.
I don’t think that I’ll close my eyes.
Because lately I’m not dreaming, so what’s the point in sleeping?
It’s just at night, I’ve got nowhere to hide.
So, I’ll write you a lullaby